What a dope…
I thought today I’d delve into the psychological profile of Lance Armstrong. I read his autobiography when it came out in 2000, a little over 12 years ago. I think that makes me more than qualified to speculate as to why he made certain life choices. 🙂 At the very least his story makes the rest of us feel pretty darn good about our own pathetic existence. For that, we can thank him. Hey, I may not be able to sell my house, but at least I don’t have to return all of my Tour de France medals, lose all of my endorsements, get shunned from the biking world, resign from my own charity organization, face multiple law suits, and feel like a gigantic loser. This is a fall from grace that feels like it’s on steroids… Oh wait, it is on steroids.
Okay. Time to get serious. Lance Armstrong is really no different from the rest of us. The title of his book, It’s not about the Bike, couldn’t be more accurate. If you recall from an earlier post, we discussed the idea that we usually recreate our past in some capacity. We sub-consciously recreate scenarios/situations and relationships that will allow us to re-experience familiar feelings from our childhoods – often the most painful.
One of the feelings that many of us carry into adulthood is a sense of shame. Shame is not “I made a mistake,” rather it’s, “I am a mistake.” It’s not “I did something bad,” it’s, “I am bad.” When Lance was little, his abusive biological father left his mother when he was two years old. His mom remarried another man who was maybe a notch better, but still, slightly abusive, cold and stern with Lance. They moved to Plano, Texas where Lance struggled to fit in at school. He was bullied and ostracized. We can gather from his early experiences that he was likely feeling, unlovable, not good enough, different, alone. It’s likely that from an early age Lance developed a sense of shame.
Lance entered adulthood with a need or desire to prove his worth. Though his wound was deep inside, it would motivate him to achieve great things. Unfortunately, the need to recreate the earlier shame he felt as a child was also very present. The decision Lance made to use steroids to enhance his performance and then hide his behavior duplicated the feeling he had as a child. I’m not good enough. There’s something I’m hiding. You don’t really know me. I’m not lovable.
Now we can maybe understand what motivated these self-defeating choices. Imagine how he must have been feeling all these years as he gained his fame and fortune on a lie. Then again, it’s possible that he believed his own lies, that he was able to justify taking those drugs and that he feels no remorse. (This would be the ego protecting itself.) His greatest accomplishment, in my eyes, is beating cancer. What’s worse, the fact that he took drugs or the enormous cover-up and the multitude of lies he had to tell, even involving his own team mates? There’s shame in both.
Had he tried to win without drugs, imagine how proud he would have been with himself. That sense of self-approval would have been enough to start undoing the original wound.
“The soul attracts that which it secretly harbors; that which it loves, and also that which it fears; it reaches the height of its cherished aspirations; it falls to the level of its unchastened desires-and-circumstances are the means by which the soul receives its own.” James Allen -British Philosophical writer – As a Man Thinketh – published 1903
The biggest issue with the Lance Armstrong tale isn’t the doping that he did, but everything else that surrounded it. He was like a mafia boss, bullying and threatening fellow cyclists, coaches, cycling journalists who tried to investigate it, the huge bribes to UCI…
Even his cancer charity served as little more than a smokescreen and a promotional vehicle for him.
I agree. It was less about the doping than the shameful cover-up. He was bound to get caught. Imagine living with that ticking time bomb. Still, I can trace his choices to his earlier experiences which makes me understand him a little bit. I just can’t imagine living a lie for so many years and duping so many people.
I was very interested by your professional perspective. My perspective is that we always live with those who mirror us. His bullying of other cyclists seems to validate that to a certain extent (meaning that I don’t really have the full story). And the steroid-taking seems to mirror the artificial strength one shows to the world. He was weak because he had to bully weaker people. He didn’t learn from his past. But in the end, if I’m right and you are right, then there’s a link. The shame was not confronted, and so it owned him. Thanks for your extremely interesting ideas.
Likewise. It’s just my nature to poke around and turn things over until they make sense. If I could make my post longer without putting people to sleep, I’d include other possible theories. I always rely on the one I mentioned because I see it over and over again. My theory is more macro where I think yours is more micro – they can indeed work together. Thanks for your insights, Yaz 🙂
Great post as always, Lisa. I saw a program last night about Lance. Two women who’d tried to out him in 2005 were shamed instead and even Armstrong said some strong words against these women who were once his friends. I’m not sure what he was thinking, but your analyses at least delves into the reasons why — psychologically — why he would have done that. Thank you — I had no idea. I just hope his charity survives — that would be a shame as well. Despite his mistakes, his charity has helped thousands.
A lie always comes out, doesn’t it? Always catches up and it’s so much more difficult to live a lie, hide it. When one puts that kind of energy into doing the right thing, speaking the truth, the end result is always so much better.
Thanks — I so enjoy these kind of posts of yours. I always learn something!! Happy weekend, my friend.
He kept the lie, even to the point of hurting others, because his sense of self depended on it. Did he learn to abuse people from his early experiences with his father(s)? It’s likely.
It has shame and low-self esteem issues written all over it. I guess I think it’s especially tragic because I believe he had what it would take to win those races fair and square. Heck, he beat a really tough cancer, didn’t he? I think he had the potential to be a winner, but his early experiences, like Bill Clinton, reared their ugly head.
I hope his charity continues its good work despite his stepping down. I’m sure it will. I feel sorry for his children. They’ll have to come to terms with their father’s disgrace. Hopefully they’ll be able to work through it and see it in its proper perspective. It’s not their legacy, it’s his.
Speaking the truth is so much easier in the long run. It boggles the mind to see successful people choose to live a lie instead.
Somehow piecing together his past helps me to understand his inner demons, and see my own crap. That road leads to compassion.
Thanks for your thoughtful answer. I missed that show, so I’m likely missing a whole piece of the story! I think it must have been far worse than I realize.
You have a beautiful weekend, too, Brig.
I still don’t understand why it took so long to uncover. I think he’s remorseful, for getting caught. Sad situation for a lot of folks. My brother, an avid cyclist, is really bummed and threw away his yellow wrist band.
Thanks for an enlightening read 🙂
What a major disappointment for so many people. Imagine how his own kids must feel. It’s devastating. I just can’t imagine how he could have allowed the lie to continue for so long. You’re right, why did it take so long to uncover? I think people got swept up in his super human story. People want to believe that the perceived Lance Armstrong exists. I think that makes his public fall even more horrific.
an excellent post that makes us understand something better–thank you for this
Thanks, LouAnn. I try not to accept things at face value, in case there’s more explanation there, and of course there always is. I think we can learn to be more compassionate when we understand what drives people. At least, that’s my goal. 🙂
I was JUST listening to an interview on CBC with a man who was a pro cyclist. He talks about the culture of doping, and how he figures 95% of cyclists were using enhanced bodies to compete. This includes Tour de France competitors. When swallowed up into a world where every one expects certain things…demands certain performances….coupled with a need to perform driven by shame…doping was the answer. I think a lot will be revealed in the next while about the cycling world, and the Armstrong fiasco is perhaps the necessary catalyst. I personally think he’s being offered as a sacrifice to the gods of Public Relations. I might be wrong, we’ll see.
I think it’s incredibly interesting to dissect his motivations and indeed, humanize Armstrong like you have. We are all guilty of bad decisions.
Exactly. There’s probably a whole lot more here than meets the eye. I just look at him and can’t help but think that he’s a strong, willful man who twice beat cancer. I think he could have applied that same will and attitude to racing, minus the drugs, and been the man that we all thought he was. You’re right, I’m sure there’s doping going on left and right in the biking world. He succumbed to the pressure like everyone else – maybe with even a greater need to fit in and be a part of something.
I’m just disappointed because I wanted to believe he could have done it on his own. Now, he’ll never have the chance to prove himself.
I like to strip a person down to the very human elements that we all have. I’m big on normalizing people and making sense of things, behaviors that seem to defy emotional logic. That’s how I roll. 🙂
Thanks for your very thoughtful and astute comment, Sara.
I think Lance was the top doping cyclist in a world of doping cyclists. I’d like to think he’d fare very well as a clean athlete so long as other athletes were clean.
Hmmm. I’ll think more about this one before I comment. As always, though, well-written and thought provoking. HF
Thanks, HF. Your insights are always appreciated. 😉
I have never, ever been a fan of Lance Armstrong, so now that all this is coming out, I am often tempted so do the told-you-so dance to everyone. Generally, I don’t have a lot of compassion for celebrities, which isn’t really fair because I DO believe that they are just people, except they have to make their mistakes on the world stage. That said, thank you for writing this and reminding me that he is a human. His mistakes are huge and he’s going to have to live the rest of his life facing the consequences of his actions, but he deserves a second chance to make right simply because he’s a human.
I’m so glad you wrote this Emily. I know that Lily feels exactly the same way about him as you do. She’s very vocal about it, too. haha! You can do the ‘I hate Lance Armstrong’ dance together! haha! Seriously, he does seem incredibly arrogant. I also think we could look at his relationships with women and draw some unflattering conclusions. Then again, his role models for husbanding were abusive men. I think his arrogance is a cover for a very deep wound that no amount of trophies, money and fame could ever erase. At the end of the day, we carry that stuff around with us no matter what size house we live in or the size of our bank account. You can run, or bike, in his case, but you can’t hide.
Our human condition, and struggle to deal with unresolved issues, is the great equalizer. He’s no different from anyone else. (…and yes, we can still dislike him!) LOL!
I don’t even watch cycling anyway.
haha! Yeah, it’s really rubbish. 😀
What’s so great about getting a yellow jersey anyway?
I know, only cowards wear yellow! 😀
Interesting post. I’ve been wondering if he had really been on steroids, but you seem to be quite sure of it. I didn’t really follow this, but everyone knows he was to return his medals… Imagine how hard that must be, both for him and the people who have now ‘won’.
The story has really exploded here in the states. Apparently he wasn’t only doping, but had an elaborate set up which included threatening his teammates, etc. His lie was out of control. It was just a matter of time before he got caught. It’s really quite ugly – the depths he sunk to in order to cover himself.
I wonder if Lance rocks back and forth in the corner listening to Sheryl Crow’s version of “The First Cut is the Deepest”? I could see him doing that. I feel bad for him, but I also don’t. You’re a grown man. Figure out life. Good post though. Very in depth and pro.
Thanks, my child.
can’t help feel sorry for the fallen legend. He’s been a true inspiration and no matter what he did with steroids, his activities off his bike have contributed tremendously to society. Yes, he acted like a mafia ring leader, but I can’t help forgive him for the inspiration he has been in many other domains.
You’ve got me thinking big time. I am now going to spend the rest of the night figuring out what aspects of my childhood may impact my behavior in the present and future.
I wanted to believe that the man who overcame cancer twice could also win the Tour de France seven times. The same tenacity and spirit he used to beat cancer seems like a natural recipe for racing and winning. I agree that he has done tremendous good with his charity and has served as an inspiration to many. That alone, is commendable. It’s just unfortunate that he will now be remembered as the doping cyclist who lied his way into the winner’s circle. It’s disappointing but yes, he’s as flawed as the rest of us.
I’m glad I got you thinking – although, Raunak, you hardly need any prompts! I consider you to be one of the deepest thinkers in the whole blogosphere. 😉
there is another similar example, that of Rajat Gupta. Corporate greed got to him, but not before he setup several educational institutions and did a lot of good for fellow human beings.
and thank you for your kind words. Mean a lot coming from an awakened and intellectual mind such as yours.
I think it’s a shame because the bad he has done has blighted all the good he did for cancer.
After reading some of the comments saying that just about everyone else also does it and how else would he compete, my thoughts are that a person who does not win but has a clean conscience is a far better person than one who does win but has to live with regret…after all, he could have said no to doping, regardless of his upbringing.
I still find it hard to believe this whole thing has happened and wish that somehow it wasn’t true because not only does it do harm to the charities he was supporting and the world of cycling of which he was such a big part, it also (and this for me is the worst part), it will cause indescribable damage to his family. He was bullied at school? Well, guess what’s going to happen to his kids… A really sad situation ,isn’t it.
Karen, you bring up so many good points. I think he would have done himself a lot of good by racing as the one person (if that’s the case) who didn’t use steroids. Imagine how he could have inspired people struggling with cancer. The idea that he had cancer twice, beat it and then competed was ENOUGH! He didn’t have to “win” the race because he already won in life. He didn’t need to prove to himself or anyone else that he was a winner at that point.
I feel bad for his kids, too. That’s the first thing that I thought of. It’s just a disgraceful legacy to have to carry around. Hopefully they can come to the understanding that their father’s shame is not their own. It belongs to their father not them.
Hopefully the charity organization he founded will not be harmed by his behavior. I know he’s removed his name. How lowly he must feel.
First of all I LOVE James Allen and I love what you quoted! Isn’t he the most wonderful writer ever? Too bad Lance didn’t read As a Man Thinketh. It would have changed his life, if he would have taken it to heart. I think Lance’s situation might be a case of the bigger they are the harder they fall off their bikes.
I loved reading this Lisa. I feel like I’m learning a lot about the human psyche from your blog and I think you’ve got Lance pegged that’s for sure!
Why do we humans feel the need to worship people who can run fast, jump high and ride their bikes really really fast? Being coordinated is nice and all and sometimes it comes in handy when escaping a burning building or something . . .
Life is a paradox. People who have nothing to prove are the people we should be looking up to — but then, we don’t know who they are! HA! 😀
Linda, your comment made me laugh. Your brain seems to work like mine. The last point you made is perfect! LOL!
I LOVE James Allen too. I might even go as far as saying, As a Man Thinketh, is my favorite book. I can read it again and again. It’s so beautifully written and so profound. Just another thing we have in common 😉
The bigger they are, the harder they fall off their bikes! hahah! You’re so right. You can run, or ride in his case, but you can’t hide! All that baggage will follow you around. (Unless you fly on United Airlines in which case you’ll temporarily get separated from it!) LOL!
I just think that if he had beaten cancer twice and competed in one Tour de France, even without winning, that would have been inspirational enough. He could have written books, set up his charity, done some public speaking and had a very honorable life. Seven wins was like waving a red flag in everyone’s face for pete sake. Talk about risky behavior. I can’t imagine living with that shame/lie, but then again, that feeling must have been familiar to him because he tolerated it for years. I don’t think he would have ever admitted to it if it hadn’t unraveled on its own.
That gave me chills when I read that As a Man Thinketh is your favorite book! It’s mine too and I reread it often!! Most people have never even heard of James Allen. But then again somehow that doesn’t surprise me. We have very similar outlooks, you and I.
I really think that the worst thing that could ever befall a person is to become rich and famous. Sooner or later they all end up paying for it with their souls.
I wonder if Lance’s cancer was him punishing himself at some level . . .
I had a funny feeling you were going to say that about that book. Isn’t that interesting? Chills, indeed. 🙂
I think you’re right. There’s a mind body connection that’s so powerful. I’m sure his cancer is a part of his psychological make-up.
Being rich and famous probably makes you feel a bit impervious. Those people believe what others write about them and then, of course, they’re surrounded by all these “yes” people – it doesn’t surprise me that they eventually fall apart. It seems so unhealthy. If you believe the good stuff they say about you, then you have to believe the bad stuff, too. Talk about a roller coaster life. No thank you!
Ouch! I was just getting ready to hit post on a Lance piece when yours came in! Great minds, eh? I’ll hold off until Monday. They’re very different anyway, but some of it just is cross over on such a big story. Living on the west coast, I’m always behind you earlier bloggers! :-p
I’ve been thinking about LA a lot lately… for a variety of reasons. One of the comment here asked for your professional opinion Lisa, and I am wondering what profession you have/had before writing? You’ve done a really nice job on these and I wondered if it’s part of your background? I’m a social worker/therapist… too funny if we have that in common too! Nice work, interesting read! 🙂
haha! We really do have great minds, Dawn. I’m a therapist! (currently taking an extended break.) Obviously that doesn’t stop me from putting on that hat sometimes. How funny that we should have that in common AND that we’re on the same wave length when it comes to our post ideas. I knew I liked you! (Because I see myself in you? haha!)
I think your Lance Armstrong post will offer something different – a unique and fresh take on his situation/issues. I look forward to reading it.
Have a great weekend!
Wow! We really do have a lot in common… I’m working on another post, that I’ve been toying with for months. Saved lots of material to use… you’ll have to let me know what you think (no analyzing though! You’ll see why). 😉 I should be done in an hour or so.
Ooh, I can’t wait!
I never knew how sad Lance Armstrong’s background was. I haven’t been up on the steroid story but it seems even more tragic now that I know his background. I guess some people see him as the bad guy — I just hope he has a lot of love and support. Good read.
Thanks, Sandee. I think half the time we hear these stories we come to a snap judgement rather than considering the deeper issues that may be lurking there. I see him as a sad little boy with a wounded sense of self. Yeah, he did crappy stuff and made bad decisions, but haven’t we all?
In your posts on Lance Armstrong, When Opposites Attract and Bill Clinton, I see a theme – arrogance. Not yours, Grippy, theirs.
I wonder if there is a tipping point where too much fame equates to arrogance, the belief that you can do something wrong or immoral or of questionable taste and get away with it just because you have achieved so much. So Lance continues his doping; Jane Fonda and Ted Turner marry even though two A++ personalities have no chance of living together for long and Clinton can have his clandestine affair in the White House because, as he put it, “I could.”
Not everyone who has gained fame becomes overly-arrogant but I wonder if there aren’t flaws in the character of some that move them from famous to arrogantly famous.
I think you’re exactly right. I think the Kennedy’s had a touch of this, as well — that feeling of being unbreakable or invincible. I think Lance Armstrong beating cancer twice probably made him feel like he was super human. I do agree that there’s an element of arrogance. They’re surrounded by “yes” people which only further serves to cut them off from reality. They feel impervious, like they can do no wrong, like they’re gods, etc. The need to achieve those heights is probably fueled by low self esteem.
People who have an external locus of control need the applause and accolades to feel good about themselves. They look for external cues to tell them they’re okay. After awhile there’s a saturation point and they need more. Those with healthy self esteem never need to look outside of themselves.
I’ve been thinking about writing about old Lance, but knew you would do it better. How about a post on sports figures like Lance, Tiger, Paterno, Brett Favre. The narrow focus, the self-aggrandizing yet ultimately self-destructive behavior? My brain gets tired thinking big thoughts, can you do it for me?
haha! I think a few brain cells died in the making of this post. You, Mags, are brilliant. Who are you kidding? I think that would be a great post. I was thinking of Tiger Woods, as well. I’m sure we can psychoanalyze his douchey ways. 🙂
I am working on an event that is to be held at the Tiger Woods center on the Nike campus here. It’s a temple to Tiger, thus totally laughable.
How funny is that!?
I’m not sure if that Tiger can change his stripes. Time will tell.
I LOVE when you go into your analyze mode. Hubris is evil and I don’t have much respect for Lance. I do not feel sorry for him at all. Clean yourself up, pick yourself up and rise above the shame that you put upon yourself and your family.
I enjoyed reading and ruminating on the quote at the end.
You are the tops lady… and wow did you get a great conversation going here today.
I’ve been on wordpress all day. I’m so tired! I didn’t get anything done today.
Thanks for your comment. Lily and Emily feel the same way you do. The bottom line is he is intelligent enough to at least go to a therapist or talk to another person about these issues. He could have sorted through them. Thoughtful, evolved, introspective, self-analyzing people do overcome their pasts. They do. Maybe he didn’t because the fame got in the way? Sometimes when you think/believe you’re all that – then it’s hard to break free of it. I think fame and fortune compound things. His book was not very well written. I don’t think he’s the sharpest tool in the shed.
He’s not evolved enough to see what happened here and put all the puzzle pieces together.
( I am exhausted just reading all the comments.. you are always so thorough and thoughtful. Get some rest woman)
Thanks, Audra! Hopefully I’ll be awake later to catch up on games. If not you’ll know I fell asleep.
Have a great night!
I really wonder whether he truly would have felt a true sense of pride and accomplishment if he hadn’t doped, if it meant that he came in second or third. If he has that much deep-rooted stuff, I can’t help thinking that anything other than a win would have fueled his issues even more.
Yeah, you’re probably right. I keep wanting to make him into a healthier guy than he is, but you’re right, he’s ego driven and nothing short of winning would be good enough. He’s out to prove to the world and to himself that he’s a winner.
In the book I remember reading how he was so controlling with his cancer, like he micro managed evey detail of his treatment. I would think that after all of his physical trauma that he’d have an understanding and reverence for his body, that he would want to refrain from anything unhealthy… Guess not?
The cover up is invariable worse than the crime – do you think i can get a refund on his books?
I think the cover up is worse than the crime, too. Hey, I wanted a refund after I read the first one – I don’t think he’s the sharpest tool in the shed. Maybe the fastest but not the sharpest! Haha!
Hi Lisa, in some ways I feel sorry for him, being “tarred and feathered” is an intense horror. How much worse when you are not only guilty of damaging yourself and your loved ones by your actions, but ONE other, let alone a dozen or so!
I wonder what he feels when he’s alone at night
Hi Charlene. I think we have a tendency to want to apply our own feelings to him. We know how we would be feeling alone at night, but I’m not sure if he’s the same way. I have a funny feeling that he started to believe his own press, all the accolades and applause, I think he wanted desperately to believe he was this great, super human person. Like you, I feel sorry for anyone who’s getting “tarred and feathered” in public. I guess that’s always why I look for the answers that are a little deeper. I feel like if I can understand his motives then I can be more compassionate. I really don’t know what he’s feeling at this point?
I enjoyed this post. Your perspective is informative and enlightening.
Thank you so much! That means a lot to me. I like to dig a little deeper to see what could be motivating behaviors and choices that perplex me. I feel like I can be more compassionate when I flesh out the whole story. I’m glad you liked it. 🙂
To be honest, I have not kept up with this whole fiasco. After I saw the press ripping Brittany Spears to shred, I tend to shy away from controversial news. In a word, doping is wrong. Period. The athlete is not earning his glory in a true fashion and the unfair advantage borders on stealing. In Lances favor, whether he dopped or not, the man beat cancer and got back in the saddle. No steroid can do that. This whole scene is really just a sad, pathetic mess.
Shame is a terrible beast to live with and my hopes are he can find peace.
I agree with you 100%. I just believed that BECAUSE he beat cancer, twice, that he could do anything. Why didn’t he believe that about himself? Couldn’t he see that the same tough attitude that helped him defeat that disease would have propelled him to victory? At least that’s what I believe. Keeping a terrible secret like that and threatening teammates, etc. seems like so much negative energy and work. Were the wins really worth it if that’s the kind of person you became? The whole thing is very sad. I think, like you, his greatest accomplishment was beating cancer and starting a wonderful charity that did, and is doing so much good.
Shame is the worst feeling in the world. Hopefully he can find his peace. I agree.
I’m curious as to what made him want to be a cyclist instead of a real athlete like a baseball player or a guy who lifts heavy things then throws it.
I’m not sure if anyone in the other 6 million comments here mentioned it, but they were going to award his medals to someone else. The problem, of the 21 other racers on the podium the years Lance won (I’m assuming that means came in 2nd or 3rd) 20 of them have also tested positive. It’s so contagious in the sport. Lance’s biggest mistake was being the best at cheating. He had the most to lose.
He tried to play baseball and football in High school but he wasn’t good. In Texas, where he grew up, it’s life and death for athletes. There’s lots of pressure to be a football player. So he started biking instead.
Yeah, I get that he wasn’t alone in his drug use but maybe he should have blown the whistle on everyone else? After winning the 7th trophy, don’t you sort of start to feel bad about your lie? I would be sick to my stomach.
During a conversation about this in my ‘other’ life – where I’m not a stylized picture of Morticia Addams and Myself, someone sagely noted – if they were ALL doping (and it seems like that is a distinct possibility) then it’s an even playing field and Lance still came out on top. That’s a pretty good point, the guy still managed to bike 2,000 miles – and I’m pretty sure that even if I was doping, I’d not have the wherewithal to accomplish that.
I agree with that. If they could prove that everyone else was doing it then it was a level playing field. There’s just something ugly about all the dishonesty and the cover-ups etc. I still think he could have won without steroids. Hey, he beat cancer, twice. Doesn’t it make sense that he could apply that same determination to winning a bike race? I think so. I think he short changed himself. It just turned into a real nasty campaign of cover-ups. There’s nothing inspiring, heroic or winning about that, ya know?
The spirit of competition has been replaced with the need to just win – cost be damned. That’s what sad about a lot sports these days.
Interesting and thought provoking read…truth ultimately wins ‘satyamev jayate’!
Yes, and what comfort that gives me. 🙂
Thank you, Swalia, for your thoughtful comment.
One of the saddest aspects is that another significant role model bites the dust. It is good to have examples of excellence in achievements as well as in how lives are lived. I don’t subscribe to the idea that for us to feel comfortable, everyone needs to be shown as fallible and therefore human.
It was a blow to many, as was one of our top cricketers who was shown to have been involved in match fixing.
I really wanted to believe that he had resisted enhancement drugs. The fact that he beat cancer twice made him seem invincible. It’s such a shame.
Rather than be perplexed by his self-defeating behavior and rather than conclude that he’s an arrogant jerk, I choose to look a little deeper at what may have motivated his choices. It helps me to be more compassionate when I understand the whole person, their history and life experiences, etc.
I meant to add that your analysis makes a lot of sense in explaining his choices.
It is such a pity that in the way the human mind works, his undoubted achievements, leaving aside the substances, will now be overlooked completely.
Yes, I agree. I feel bad for his children, too. His achievements will forever be tainted by his unfortunate choices.
I hope you don’t die in the big wind of New York, that’d suck 😦
Thanks for thinking of me, Pete. I’m in the middle of the country so I should be pretty safe. Yeah, if I died, I concur, it would suck in a major way. 🙂
I read about it in the paper in the pub at lunch and I thought “:O Lisa lives in New York!” some friends of friends are in New York at the moment but I don’t care about them as much haha
Haha! I’m safe. Yeah, I think this thing has like Biblical proportions. YIKES!
Saddest part is that the charities and cancer awareness he supported will take a hit because of this.
but would he have given been able to give them such a boost without the doping?
You raise a very good point. I feel like he was a hero for beating cancer and then to even be in ONE Tour de France race would have been an incredible achievement. I think those two things could have maybe gotten his charity a boost. Who was that one guy…Terry something? I forget his story but wasn’t he an amputee and didn’t he run a race and become a hero?
I don’t think he had to win 7 Tour de France races in order to make his charity successful. But then again, what do I know? ha!
I met him once in Austin. He was at his club, Six (named before he finished his TdF “wins”) and I was actually downtown with a friend. My friend somehow got the guts to go up to him to try and get a picture so I tagged along to say “hi,” which is not normally something I’d do. I get pretty starstruck and feel like I’m bothering any celebrity by asking to do any of this. Regardless, when we went up to him, he was pretty darn rude. He said he didn’t want any extra attention and if he gave my friends a picture, he would have to do it all night. It always stuck with me HOW he said it, the tone, the body language. I was already cautious of him feeling that way, but it was like he couldn’t be bothered even putting up with a moment of plebeians speaking to him.
PS – “We sub-consciously recreate scenarios/situations and relationships that will allow us to re-experience familiar feelings from our childhoods – often the most painful.” This is so true. I need to write you an email and talk a little more about this. It’s happening in my life right now and I’m exhausted.
Wow! Now I don’t feel so terrible about writing anything derogatory. That’s a shame that he’s so full of himself. I have an autographed copy of “Happily Ever After,” by Kristin, his first wife. She couldn’t be lovelier. Here’s what she wrote…
May God Bless you- all of your relationships and every single step of your journey. With love and faith,
Sooo, slightly different than Lance. haha! No wonder they got a divorce. Good for her!
Hey, anytime you want just email – I know that little bit is so true and valuable. I’ve seen and felt it in my own life repeatedly.
Have baby lovin’ day!
New Post! New Post! New Post! I yearn! HF
😀 Okay, I’ll just drop everything and whip up a little something to satisfy my readers… and don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing here. I’m filing this under more harassment.
Harassment!?!?! I’m the one that should be complaining. You get me hooked like a junkie and then you don’t write for a week. I need my Lisa fix!!!! Thrill me, woman! HF
Great post, Lisa. I honestly didn’t know very about Lance other than he was a hero to so many people. What a disappointment. We’ll never know if he could have achieved his success without drugs now. How sad.
Thanks, Amy. I think what you said sums it up. We’ll never know and I guess neither will he… I wonder how he can live with that?
Yes, yes, I agree with you. We do go to the core of our childhood feelings until we’ve flogged ourselves enough times to tray a bit different way out.
Yes! I’m glad you feel the same way. I see these patterns repeated over and over again. When we finally figure out where those original faulty messages came from and learn to stop believing them, then we can stop all the self-defeating behavior. I only wish it didn’t take so long to figure out!
Would love to hear some more analysis of Lance after the World has seen his admissions/apologies on Oprah ? I think he may be digging an even deeper hole and not doing his already battered PR any favours. I think there is still some ” denial” in his persona and he is still not ready to admit all the demons in his physce (Narcisist/physchopathic) But hey what do I know I can’t even spell some of these conditions!
I think to Lance Armstrong, “Winning at all costs” is about his literal sense of emotional survival. Winning, somehow, made him feel like a worthwhile human being. It made him okay. Without it, his earlier childhood demons, getting teased and ostracized at school and having an absent and unloving father, surface and the pain is too much for him. Winning allows him to feel good without having to deal with his demons, that’s why for him, it’s a matter of life and death. As long as he’s a champion, his sense of self is in tact.
He’s a fearful and insecure person under all of his bravado. He’s probably, emotionally, like a 12 or 13 year old boy. He could easily be a narcissist. I’m not sure if he’s a sociopath. It’s possible… he certainly seems to lack a sense of a moral code. He doesn’t seem to have a conscience. I think this is why the public is reacting to him with such venom. No one likes a bully. And now it becomes clear why he can’t maintain a relationship with any women. He’s a very un-evolved person.
Great comment, Kenny!!